Sunday, November 1, 2015

Moving Day

Today, I will move in to my new apartment. It signifies the beginning of a chapter, one in which I am living and loving on my own terms. One in which I am blooming within the garden of the will in which I rely. One without servitude or force, without limitations my own imagination concocted.
My own space. My own life.

I would like to take a moment of gratitude in writing...for I live much of my life in gratitude, however the word is a powerful thing.
I am thankful for the many many people who have helped me.
In support, listening, advising, pointing the way, shining a light in both the positives and negatives.
I am thankful for the hands, the direction posts, the lessons and the circumstances that have brought me to this place.
I have zero regret, or guilt, or bad feelings. Only blessings and love.
The desire to change what was binding led not to a "change" so to speak...but the unbundling and revealing of understanding. An acceptance for what is, and the release of all the masks I clung to.
I am here. 
For this, there is no one in my life who I am not fully in love with and in gratitude for.
Although I choose to embark on this journey "alone", I am not in a state of "alone-ness". Rather, I am at all times surrounded by a community of support and respect and love. Freely coming and going with the in and out breath. 
Thank you- for if you are at this moment reading, then you also are a part of my oneness. 

Lately, I have been asked quite frequently if I am afraid.
I have attempted to explain. Now I will express...
There is no fear in what I am doing.
There is freedom. 
There is peace and acceptance.
Where I notice concern, I breathe into this moment a release to know.
I do not need to "know" what is three steps ahead.
I only need to know now...and now, I am here. I am fine. All my needs are met and I am well.
There is no fear here.
Only gratitude and love.

As I move into a space I may call my own, it is with peace, thankfulness and open acceptance that this is where I am to be. 
All is well.